Sunday, January 28, is the date on which my father would have turned 100. He was 96 when he passed away in May of 2020. Dad died during the early days of Covid. My last visit was two months before the pandemic. Being with him at the time of his death was not possible. We were also unable to have a memorial service. My brother and his family live a couple of hours away, and were able to be at the graveside where they had a small ceremony.
There was no real closure for me. A memorial service would have been packed. Dad ministered in Grayson, Kentucky for 22 years. He was loved in that town, as well as in Lexington, where my parents lived in retirement for 31 years.
A few years before he passed, Dad told me how his sister, Virginia, would tell everyone, “My kid brother is going to be a preacher.” The decision had been made for him early in life. Fortunately, he was amenable to it. He was a natural pastor, the kind that comes out of central casting.
My father attended Kentucky Christian College, my alma mater. He met my mother there and they were married shortly after graduation. Dad’s first ministry was in Advance, Indiana, where he served while he worked on a master’s degree at Butler School of Religion. He moved to Huntington, West Virginia and served a church there for seven years. That is where I was born.
We moved to Akron, Ohio in the fall of 1955, and for the next twelve years my father pastored at the West Akron Church of Christ, a healthy, growing congregation. During his ministry the church built a new building, and grew to an attendance of about 350. During those years he joined the board of Kentucky Christian College, served on the Continuation Committee of the North American Christian Convention, and served as the dean of senior high camp at Round Lake Christian Assembly.
In January of 1967, my father accepted a new ministry at my mother’s home church, First Church of Christ in Grayson, Kentucky. He served there for 22 years, until he retired on his 65th birthday in 1989.
Outside of Grayson, Dad was not well-known. He was not a great preacher, but he was a wonderful pastor. He loved everyone. When people showed up in his life, whether it be a Sunday worship service or a chance encounter at Rupert’s Department Store, Dad always looked like he had been expecting them. He warmly greeted everyone and had a great interest in their lives, whether they were highway construction workers, or the superintendent of schools.
A lot of the confidence I have gained began in my childhood home, where my father delighted in me. Whether it was a band concert in the 9th grade, or the first time I preached at the North American Christian Convention, Dad was in the audience, beaming. When I became a disc jockey at the radio station in town, Dad listened all the time, and came to the station often to watch me spin vinyl and read the news straight off the AP wire.
When I was doing play-by-play or color at basketball games, Dad listened to the broadcast from beginning to end, and when I got home, encouraged me. As far as he was concerned, I was a sure successor to the legendary University of Kentucky broadcaster, Cawood Ledford.
Long after I’d graduated from college and moved away, Dad became the announcer for the local high school’s basketball games. They gave him a jacket with “Voice of the Raiders” embroidered on the front chest pocket. He proudly wore that jacket for the rest of his life.
When I became the editor-at-large of the weekly magazine of our denomination, the Christian Standard, Dad reminded me that it had been published since 1866, and that there had been only a handful of editors. There was a part of me that took that part-time job because I knew it would please my father.
I write about the actions of his life and the places in which he served because I never knew much about the interior life of my father. He was very private. He did not share his deepest self with anyone. You had to read between the lines to determine the state of his soul. In that regard we were polar opposites. I used to have a plaque in my bedroom that said, “It’s all right to have an unexpressed thought.” Dad did not need that plaque.
Dad was always open to conversations about politics or theology. I’d have delightful conversations with him, as long as the topic was something “out there.” When he did open up more intimately and transparently, it was usually with me. I considered that quite an honor. I never knew when he would grace me with words from his soul. It might be on a plane to the North American Christian Convention, or driving to the grocery store on Long Island, or visiting me at the radio station. I treasured those moments and began to think of them as having won the intimacy lottery, and wonder what I might do that would hasten the return of those times of deep conversation.
My dad was always on the move. He walked miles, intuitively embodying solvitur ambulando, “It is solved by walking.” I do understand that propensity. I run at least six days a week for at least 45 minutes. Most weeks I run seven days. I edit and memorize sermons or keynote speeches while running. Walking and running get your brain firing neurons across both hemispheres, which is a good thing.
A lot of memories have been surfacing lately as I think about Dad’s one-hundredth birthday. Wrestling on the floor after we’d had popcorn, which we did every Thursday evening. Riding in the car with him anywhere, because that was when he was most inclined to talk. Thoroughly enjoying his homemade donuts, delicious for exactly six hours until magically turning into door stops in hour seven. Still, I happily emptied the pan in which those hard as a rock donuts were stored. Telling stories at bedtime about cowboys Jim and Jiggles. Every story ended with Jiggles singing Home on the Range. Dad had a beautiful voice, but Jiggles did not. I loved the way he sang that song.
When Dad was with me he was rarely distracted. For me, he was present. What that did for my self-esteem was profoundly important. He loved my singing, my preaching, my broadcast work, my writing skills, and my leaderships. Dad loved me and I always knew it. Not many people receive that kind of adoration from their father. I shall be eternally grateful for his steadfast love.
My first TED Talk tells the story of the first time I visited with my parents after I had transitioned. I tell the story all the time. I cannot tell it without crying, because it was a moment of profound love, the kind that makes the world go round. I am glad millions of people have heard it.
I miss my father. The world is a better place because he was in it. His legacy was one of warmth. He warmed hearts with lasting effect. Mention his name and all who knew him will smile. Often they will say what I always knew to be true. “Ah yes, Dave Williams, the epitome of a gentleman.”
And so it goes.