There’s nothing quite like running for office. My first term on the town Board of Trustees we did not have enough candidates for an election to take place, so all candidates were seated. There was an election for my second term. I did not start getting nervous until right before election day. I knew the odds were with me, but I still let out a sigh of relief when I knew I had been elected. I ended up serving as mayor pro tem, a decision made by the trustees in their first meeting.

This time the odds are 50/50 and I really have no idea who will win. I’ve been trusting my gut but my gut has not been reliable. Every couple of days it shifts its opinion. Someone asked me at church yesterday if my opponent was formidable. I hadn’t used that particular term, but if formidable means he may well beat you, the answer is yes, he is formidable.

Mark has a lot of institutional knowledge about the town. As a board member he has dug deep into issues and at times brought illumination to the entire board. He is a dedicated volunteer who has devoted countless hours to meeting the tangible needs of others. He is a good guy.

If he is so exceptional, why am I running against him? I’ve worked with Mark on the board for two years. I believe he is a better board member than he would be as mayor. I’ve chaired boards for over half my life. I believe a key to efficient functioning in any organization is good governance. It is my opinion that I will be a more effective mayor than he would be. As I said in one of the candidate forums, the town is probably in pretty good shape whoever wins.

But back to the election itself. It is flat out strange to realize that in twenty-four hours you will find out if people have made the decision to accept you or reject you. I suppose that happens to everyone who becomes one of the final two candidates in any job search, but in those situations it’s a handful of people making the decision. Here, it is an entire municipality, or at least the voters thereof. Well, a portion of the voters thereof.

Municipal election are notorious for a light turnout, particularly when they are spring elections. There has been a lot of interest in this election, with two candidates for mayor and nine for six open board positions. Still, I will be surprised if we get over a fifty percent turnout. If it was this November, that would be a different story. Most people would agree that things are running pretty well here at the municipal level. When people feel that way, they tend to feel less passionate about voting.

I’ve used the picture on the left above for my campaign. The one on the right, the cover photo of my book, has more of a Mona Lisa feel. The women at my speaker’s agency prefer that picture. They say it gives me gravitas. One of my good friends says it makes me appear aloof. I reckon the truth is in the eye of the beholder.

I am not sure how anyone running for office could avoid taking it personally if they lose. I mean, people had an option and they specifically chose someone else over you. I imagine it drives some people to campaign harder. When I decided to throw my hat in the ring, I had already worked through the whole rejection thing. I would not have run if I would not have been okay losing. People are not rejecting you as a person. They are rejecting you as the elected leader of their community.

It has been interesting that not once have I heard a single word during this election cycle about the fact that I am transgender. I am sure there are people who are not voting for me because of it. But ours is a liberal enough environment that they are not posting about it online. One board member sent a letter to the editor of our local newspaper alluding to it and stating strong support for me. He had sent it to me before sending it to the paper. It was thoughtful and very well written. At least two other newspapers had articles about the election. They did not mention my gender at all.

I am well aware how fortunate I am to live in a place in which my gender identity is not a major issue. For most folks it is an afterthought. As our mayor said, “The fact that Paula is transgender is the least interesting thing about her.” I so wish that is how trans folks in the rest of the nation were experiencing life in their neck of the woods. Being transgender is hard to begin with, let alone navigating life if you are being treated as a pariah by your neighbors.

Would I run for office again? I was ambivalent about running this time. I was strongly encouraged to run by our town staff and current and past board members. I would not have done it without their encouragement. I will be disappointed if I lose, but not profoundly. If I win, I have a lot of hard work in front of me for the next two years. But the pay makes it all worth it. And what is the pay, you ask. It is $700 a month. That’s right – a mind-blowing $8,400 a year. What on earth will I do with those kinds of riches?

I will update this post tomorrow to let you know how things go.